It's amazing how time flies.
How days just slipped away.
Yesterday, we are just saying our goodbyes to 2009 and now its the half of 2010.
In the past months, so many things happened - like so much!
Dreams do come and go.
People do come and go.
Hello's and Goodbye's.
Experiences are getting different and different.
Learning to let go.
Learning to grasp again.
It seems so easy. It seems so fast. It seems so light. It seems so fun.
But actually... It's not.
Every experience can break or make you.
Every experience can break or build your trust.
And sometimes or most of the time, you will need to forgive - the other person or even yourself.
I never realized...
-I will be in a situation that is so hard and painful to let go.
-I have this pain inside me.
-I have this traumatic scar inside me.
-I will be in a situation that is so hard to forgive - to trust.
It's easy to tell people to forgive and trust again, but actually its one of the hardest thing to do!
I woke up crying... asking how God can really just love us like that.
That even though, how bad I am yesterday, He's just ready to forgive and trust me again.
That even though, I've hurt Him - so many times, caused Him to give up His only Son for me - still welcomes me with His warm embrace.
That no matter what, His grace, mercy and love is new every morning.
Knowing that Someone did and continues to do that for you and me, made me asks the question: "What's stopping you, Marge? Isn't His love more than enough to erase everything?"
I know that this is not a one time deal, this is a forever encounter.
I will forever meet Mr. Forgiveness and Ms. Trust everywhere I go.
So today, I must learn to get used to seeing them and applying them.
This is not easy and I didn't regret choosing this path.
But I'm sure, I'll forever have the pain and hatred if I won't start it now.
I'll never regret meeting Mr. Forgiveness and Ms. Trust.
Humbling? Painful? Of course!
But we have to FORGIVE and we have to TRUST again.
Let's us not let anything paralyze us from trusting again.
Love endures long and is patient and kind; love never is envious nor boils over with jealousy, is not boastful or vainglorious, does not display itself haughtily. It is not conceited (arrogant and inflated with pride); it is not rude (unmannerly) and does not act unbecomingly. Love (God's love in us) does not insist on its own rights or its own way, for it is not self-seeking; it is not touchy or fretful or resentful; it takes no account of the evil done to it [it pays no attention to a suffered wrong]. It does not rejoice at injustice and unrighteousness, but rejoices when right and truth prevail. Love bears up under anything and everything that comes, is ever ready to believe the best of every person, its hopes are fadeless under all circumstances, and it endures everything [without weakening]. Love never fails [never fades out or becomes obsolete or comes to an end]. 1 Corinthians 13:4-8a Amplified
I'm now excited into having a great and refreshing start.
A start full of trust and love and with God.
